跟自己说声对不起 ....

跟自己说声对不起，因为很久没有好好的吃饭

跟自己说声对不起，因为很久没有好好的利用时间

跟自己说声对不起，因为很久没有好好地给自己挑一份礼物

跟自己说声对不起，因为总是莫名的忧伤

跟自己说声对不起，因为曾经为了别人难为了自己

跟自己说声对不起，因为因为伪装让自己很累

跟自己说声对不起，因为很多东西我没有学会好好珍惜

跟自己说声对不起，因为我让自己不开心

跟自己说声对不起，因为忘了提醒自己要好好照顾自己

跟自己说声对不起，因为倔强让自己受伤了

跟自己说声对不起，因为忘记了要搁浅

跟自己说声对不起，因为含泪的微笑我没有倾诉

跟自己说声对不起，因为悲伤麻烦了一些爱我的人

跟自己说声对不起，因为总是和别人说对不起而忘了自己

最后，说完对不起之后，生活还在继续。

其实，原来我只是想让自己开心一点。。。不要难过。

Awareness XS

Blog is a place where people can share their feelings ~
Blog is a place where everything goes ~
Blog is a private place so that you do not need to worry bout anything ~

But for me, blog is a place where everything will shoot back at you ...
Back stab, grunt, anger, sadness ...
It all reflects back about you and only you ...

Sometimes things get personal and sharing is not always caring ...
Trust me, it never work in this way ...
No terms and no condition supply XP

There are always good side and bad side about blog ...
Well people do have two side no doubt about it ...
And one thing for sure is that other people can gain info from you BLOG ~

Is good to share your emotions and feelings towards things and places ...
Is good to show other people what you are up to these days ...
Is also good to let other people know what is happening around you and also you ...

But but but ~
Is bad so that other people with intentions will work into your way ~
Is bad cause you expose your position XS
Is also bad cause other people may bad mouth you ...

So think twice before you post anything up ...
Think twice before you been boycott or isolated by others ,..
Beware, you might hurt your love ones too ...

So no matter what or how ...
Do think deeply before you post something ...
And if you post something bad, you might get into trouble as well (beware ISA) XP

我不是要赢，只是不想输给自己 ...

赢是什么？

什么是赢？

有谁能告诉我吗？

每个人都想赢，我也不例外 ...

但是如果全部人都想赢，那世界岂不是没有人输了吗??

那人生就没有乐趣了咯～

说真的，我本人很喜欢赢 ...

因为那种感觉难以形容 ...　

但是赢了又如何？　

有些事情比胜利还要重要 ...

而那重要的事情就要你自己觉得重不重要咯～

有些人为了赢而不折手段，

有些人为了赢而出卖队友，

有些人为了赢而出卖兄弟，

甚至有些人为了赢而背叛家人，背叛自己...

赢真的那么重要吗？　

赢真的比以上所说的重要吗？

为何要为一时的虚荣而伤害身边的人呢？

为什么 ？？

而我也会因为想赢而做出我不成做过的事 ...

就是付出和牺牲 ...

付出精神，牺牲时间，这样赢会比伤害身边的人好很多 ...

起码自己知道自己不会对不起别人 ...

最重要的要赢自己,

不是吗??

和别人比较,我不服输,

不是因为我想赢,而是我不想没尽自己的努力而输 ...

那样我会很不甘心，

那样我会觉得我欺骗自己，

那样我会觉得我在逃避 ...

我不是想赢，只是不想输给自己 ...

Work on LOVE ~

She looks but she does not see

She hears but she does not listen

She who is stuck in her little crystal.

The crystal reflects the light and shines all the time.

It looks precious and absolutely beautiful from the outside.

How does it feel to be inside though?

She who is stuck within her crystal wall.

Wondering about the light which shines in from the outside world.

Wondering about the cheery birds that twitter near her walls sometimes.

Her thoughts and songs are unheard.

It resonates within her crystal cage.

So she sit in her crystal stare out all day and sing to herself.

Then she saw it, someone was chipping at the round glass opposite her with an ice pick.

She gasped and thought to herself 'How can he do that'

She thought the girl inside the glass must have been horrified!

She turned to the girl and saw her helping the boy.

Then the girl in the crystal realized that the girl in the glass wants to go out and meet the boy.

'How odd' she thought to herself.

The world outside seemed so..so..uncertain but in the crystal, everything is in order and works perfectly.

So why would the girl in the glass wants to go out?

So she sat and thought about it everyday.

One day, she heard strange sound.

She turned to source of the noise and found a boy was chipping at her crystal wall.

She panicked, he was destroying her pretty wall.

He was trying to get into her private sanctuary.

So she tried to stop him.

Waving frantically for him to stop & she was also yelling 'STOP'

But the boy kept going.

He came everyday to work on the wall and everyday the girl would try stopping him.

The girl expected to wake up to the chipping sound made by the boy but she didn't

She waited for him but she didn't see him the whole day.

She waited the next day too and yet he didn't come.

So she thought perhaps she's finally pushed him away

She felt awkward without the presence of the boy.

As she looked out from her crystal home, she saw the girl in the glass with the boy who broke into her glass walking around the gardens.

They were happy, genuinely happy.

Maybe she could be like that too if only she didn't push her boy away.

She took a look around her lil crystal home

Such a pretty and safe place but it has no warmth.

She pulled her blanket over her head and held it tight but yet she felt no warmth.

'Tuk, Tuk, Tuk'

She sprang up from her bed after she heard it.

The boy has returned!

This time, instead of trying to get him to go away,

She picked up the nearest object and started to work on the crystal wall

The boy was surprised but continued to break the wall with his little ice pick.

So both of them kept working on the wall.

Maybe they will be happy, maybe they won't.

But they will try as they work on the thick thick wall of the crystal.

Because you don't know what you have until you nearly lose it.

Sometimes ~

Sometimes I wish there will be a better day ...
Sometimes I wish my time will not fly away ...
Sometimes I wish I have a room full of my own imagination ...
Sometimes I wish I have more things than others ...

Sometimes I wish I can be what I want to be ...
To be a pilot, engineer or even a star ...
Sometimes I wish I have more power ...
To be a politician, a mastermind or even a king ...

Sometimes I laugh ...
Sometimes I smile ...
Sometimes I'm quite ...
Sometimes I wish I can even cry ...

Sometimes I'm me ...
Sometimes I'm not ...
But it just sometimes ...
After all I'm still me ...

Kiss the rain ~

Kiss the rain ...
Whenever I gone too long ...
Kiss the rain ...
If your lips feel lonely and thirsty ...
Kiss the rain ...
And wait for the dawn ...
Keep in mind we're under the same sky ...
And the nights as empty for me as for you ...
If you feel you can't wait till morning ...
Kiss the rain ...

This is our lifes ...

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away

想发泄~

一个人哭有罪吗？

一个男人哭有罪吗？

一个把问题永远收藏在心里而哭的男人有罪吗？

哭本来就是无罪的 。。。

我想哭 ， 但有些事令我的眼泪跑不掉 。。。

我想哭 ， 但我不愿我的父母为我操心 。。。

我想哭 ， 但不愿我的朋友知道我的事 。。。

我只想找个任何人都找不到我的地方 ， 然后大声地哭 。。。

只是这个地方我怎么找都找不到 。。

Behind a Happy Face ...

There are always some people, they seem very happy all day, laughing and joking, with no trouble, like a child, they say that is my greatest pleasure to play, I like to play, I will be playing what many people, when their faces total smile, a lot of people will envy them, but this is actually where they are most sad, they do not want to let others see their sad side, but one can not afford to be alone, because when the dead of night, he did not know a person what will happen, sitting in meditation traversed the window bit by bit

No one read to understand them, seemingly happy pondered sadly they will shed a look of sadness, and then himself said to himself: Actually no, the fate of bar! So they've always forcing themselves to laugh, in order to avoid that ordinary people can not avoid the suffering!

They seemingly very strong, because people view what they are able to smile to the face, but in fact they are long the world's most vulnerable soul, just a long-term camouflage makes this difficult to find their inner depths of the trauma . In fact, they are very lonely, though to see them when they were with a group of people chatting, it is because they simply can not afford a person the torture!

They just want to simply, live happily and look forward to and believe that each person to smile is sincere hope that people around are really like themselves. Even if the views of others, a little also they are sorry for another long time, they really really mind, mind that he is not liked. Because they are always for someone else think a lot of other people is always better than their own; to those who can enjoy good as a happy, more like people than like their own.

They always did before the second was also sad tears, after the second time in front of their friends already face Yi Zhao smile. Some people say that they are sunflowers, yes, they care about people like the sun, when in the face of the sun is always Mingyan petals, while the sun not shine on the back, it was so well hidden sadness unwilling to be seen.

They aspire to live as free indulgence, but it must be very hard to whom a direction of North Korea and the other alive, very tired, still are willing. Away from their dreams become more and more away, but never imagined the face of competition and complexity of panic overwhelmed. Only by facing the most trusted person, would remove the armor, aggrieved shed tears. Because in their minds, laughing is a happy, crying is a sad, close to that is like it, stay away from that is annoying. But it is not, they understand that, your heart is good injury, no hold back tears. After crying, smiled too wiped away her tears and said, okay, I can do good.

They seem to do anything, like always there will be no trouble, as if any problems can be easily resolved, always like people who like to appear in tears in front of grinning Douzhuo laugh. In the face of its own problems, they are at a loss flawless face of their grief, they will hide in a corner, often unseen, the more slowly from the wound the larger crack.

Their idea is very simple, say it is the mind think, the stomach does not Po 7 8 of lesser curvature, lack of enthusiasm may give rise to the words of someone else's misunderstanding. So, please do not hate them, they do not want harm from whom, a relatively small mistake can allow them to regret for a long time.

They are actually very simple, even you have given him a smile, he will remember your good life, so their view of the world is actually very simple, they can easily be confused, please do not hurt their feelings easily, because once hurt , it will never make up for not coming back! If you have such people around you to give him (her) even if that point is a precious care, so that he (she) knows this world does not abandon them.

14样应该偷偷知道的事情

1、 当你爱上了那个追你的男生，一定要记得，不要让他在你的门口等上太久，因为任何人的耐心都是有限的，不要以为他喜欢你就可以毫无怨言的为你白白浪费几个小时的等待 时间。
2、 如果你不爱他，那么请早点告诉他，不要让他再为你耗费自己的青春，感情还有金钱 ，更不要把他的追求当成是自己炫耀的资本，被人玩弄的感觉就像吞了一只苍蝇那样恶心 ，亲爱的，为了保持你的形象，请你早点拒绝他。
3、 在你的朋友和他的朋友面前不要表现的像一个母老虎一样，男生总是爱面子的，在外人面前多给他一点也没有什么不好的，更何况他是你的男朋友，而且自己也能落个贤妻良母的称号，一举两得，何乐而不为呢。
4、 对他要倍加呵护，男人总是比女人过得更难，在外面风风光光的，心里也许有很多说不出来的苦衷，所以当他偶尔下班回家摆了一张臭脸的时候决不要生气，要用你的温柔打动你的爱人，谁还没有不顺的时候嘛。
5、 不要宣扬那个所谓现代男生的“三从四得”，什么“老婆的命令要服从，老婆的…… ，老婆上街要等得”等等，站在一个女性的角度来看都觉得这个是很不合理的，更不要提 男生了。
6、逛街的时候不要一心只想着自己逛的爽，其实大部分男生都是不喜欢陪着女孩逛街的，很多可能都没有陪过自己的老妈，只是由于你是他的女朋友才没有抓狂而已，换个人早就溜之大吉了，所以买了东西就赶紧回家吧，要是非要逛的话不如去找同性朋友，和她们逛起来才是真的尽兴，相信谁都不想看自己的男朋友走进一家服装店的第一件事就是找板凳。
7、 不要和别人攀比，女生有的时候虚荣心比较重，但是为了你们的将来，请千万不要说出，你看谁谁谁今天又买了什么什么的，说者无意，但是这时候男生心里面肯定很不好受 ，脾气好一点的会不说话，脾气不好的估计就要发火了
8、 不要当着男朋友的面大肆的夸奖别的男生，除非你是不想和他过下去了，因为这样的直接后果就是他会以为你看不上他了，所以才会这样当面羞辱他。
9、 不要和别人说你们两个人之间的小秘密（这个的内容大家可以自己想想），即使是再亲密的朋友也不能说，除非他不知道，否则他知道了心里肯定又会又疙瘩的。
10、 做错了事就要主动承认错误，那种认为两个人吵架不管谁的错认错的一定是男生的想法已经过时了，现在男女平等，犯了错误承认一下又不会多长两斤肉，所以错了就请对他勇敢的说：“亲爱的，我错了，原谅我好吗？”YES！矛盾一下子全解决了。
11、 不要每天神经兮兮的拿着他的手机看看有没有什么不好的短信，是你的别人抢都抢不走，不是你的再怎么样都留不住的，所以相信自己，做个自信的PP女友。
12、对他的老妈一定要好，当然毫不讲理的婆婆除外，因为他妈妈和他在一起的时间现在远比你们在一起的时间要长，他们的感情肯定也比你们的要深，不要问那种“我和你妈妈同时落水你会救谁的问题”，很多时候答案往往会让你伤心，要不就是他根本就是哄哄你罢了，况且如果没有他母亲的悉心教导怎么会有这么优深爱的男生呢，所以把她当你自己的妈妈一样看待吧。
13、 不要背叛他，给他真正的安全感，让他能放心大胆的去开创自己的事业，并且始终记住：无论贫穷还是富有，健康还是疾病，都要相爱相依，不离不弃，直到死亡。
14、爱他，摘下你的面具。做他的爱人、情人、朋友、兄弟、父亲和孩子。关心她，像他关心你一样；紧张他，像他紧张你一样；爱他，像他爱你一样。在要求和挑剔他之前，先问问自己做得怎么样。不只是被爱和索取，而是平等地相互体谅，相互关怀。把你的心和他的心紧紧相连，而不只是身体

男朋友

男朋友就是每天不厌其烦的陪你吃饭、送送你上下班的那个
人；
男朋友就是虽然身上没什么钱，也会请你吃饭的那个人；
男朋友就是早晨你醒来时第一个想到的那个人；
男朋友就是能跟你打电话聊到半夜都舍不得挂的那个人；
男朋友就是在你最艰难的时候陪伴在你身边的那个人；
男朋友就是为了不让你担心，无论出了什么事都要自己默默
承担的那个人；
男朋友就是手机里总是存满你给他发的短信，直到信箱满了
都舍不得删掉的那个人;
男朋友就是无论你是不是漂亮都会夸赞你漂亮的那个人；
男朋友就是常察看你的手机纪录，确信跟你常联系的都是你
的女性朋友才放心的那个人；
男朋友就是在你任性、耍小脾气时，也会忍住脾气不会冲你
发火的那个人；
男朋友就是看到你流泪时，为你擦去泪水给你一个温暖拥抱
的那个人；
男朋友就是就算你犯了错误，也舍不得骂你的那个人；
男朋友就是可以在车站等你很久也不会介意的那个人；
男朋友就是明明最不喜欢逛街，还能陪你一家一家的逛到你
觉得满意为止的那个人；
男朋友就是有着宽厚的肩膀可以让你随时依靠的那个人；
男朋友就是吃饭时放慢速度等你的那个人；
男朋友就是总是让你走在马路内侧的那个人；
男朋友就是过马路时会紧紧拉住你的手的人；
男朋友就是就算情人节也不会买花给你，让你对他又爱又气
的那个人；
男朋友就是深夜为你开着手机的那个人；
男朋友就是当你读到这篇文章时立刻会想到的那个人

珍惜她，不然她就会学会放弃。。。

一个女孩上自习,太凉了,
她发短信让男朋友去送衣服给她,男孩打游戏拒绝了.
这件事让她郁闷了两天然后气消了,
虽然是件小事,不会影响两人以后, 但是她说,
她会记住, 以后自习一定会带衣服,
如果哪天忘记了, 即使冷死,也不再会叫他送.
我很能明白这种感觉.
很久以前,一个女孩某天夜里,
心情特别低回,特别想念某个人的安慰,
然后半夜时分,打电话给他,说很想听他说话,
电话那头的他从睡梦中醒来,不耐烦的敷衍她.
从此以后,她再没有伤心无助时给他打过电话.
我发现女孩身上有一种猫性.
小猫在撒娇或者做错事的时候,需要别人的安慰和教导,
如果这时主人打击了它,它会狠狠记住,不会再犯.
女孩,有着猫一样的自尊.特别是陷入爱情里的女孩...
在别人看来无关紧要,其实需要呵护,
因为爱,已经让她的心变得柔软.
她的这一点自尊,其实是要你对她的在乎.
我看过一句特别经典的话,
有时候女孩需要一个男孩,就像逃机者需要降落伞,
如果此时此刻他不在,那么以后他也不必在了.
真的,就是这样！
如果哪天猫咪用坚定的眼神看着你说我可以的时候，
那么猫咪已经做好了离开的准备了!
女孩是要独立，
但是独立到不再会对你不讲道理的撒娇任性，
不再会无厘头的缠着你，
你觉得你对于她同路人还有多大区别呢?
女孩的猫性不是每个男孩都有幸看到的，
因为喜欢你，在意你才对你发出特有的咕噜噜声，
其他人只能听到猫喵喵叫，
而这一声咕噜噜只是为你而生，
有几个人会明白呢？？
我们爱折腾
只是爱折腾他而已。
如果有一天
我们慢慢发现自己可以一个人玩都不觉得闷
很久不捏他也不会手痒
只是静静的待在他旁边
不再想着法儿去玩它
谁能知道那时的我们该有多难过呢
男孩总会说女孩无理取闹
说女孩没事找事
说女孩不讲道理
说女孩不可理喻
为什么不去想想
她在对待别人的时候
为什么不是这样的态度
没错
如果有一天
她不再对你撒娇
她不再对你任性
她不再缠着你跟你要这个要那个
她不再因为你的任何事情微笑或者皱眉
那么
你就永远的失去她了！

不是男朋友的男朋友

每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，她没有要你等她。

也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

她有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望她追到。

她遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮她，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和她只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心她，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做她的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
她永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当她那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的......

关于爱情：
不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。
不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。
不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。
不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。
其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···